I wanna listen to the trees, maybe stare up at the clouds. Yes, I want to get lost, let’s get lost

Another month down, we are now in August. June’s photos went up a little late, so this feels like July was even shorter than it was. One more summer month filled with great company and magnificent skies.
I have spent the last couple of days planning and writing the next months blog posts, so don’t worry – it isn’t becoming just my monthly photos. However, I hope you enjoy seeing a small collection of snapshots for July.

July, week one.
I am sure by now that you know I love a good sunset/sky photo. There’s something I have always been drawn to and felt the need to capture in the sky. This one was taken from my boyfriend’s garden, and the light is just spectacular. A fairly self explanatory selfie, always in my favourite necklace from Sugar and Vice. Christopher couldn’t decide what to do one day and as we were driving we came across a place to see Meerkats and a whole host of other cute animals that you could stroke. I wanted to put one of each in my bag to bring home though…

July, week two.
The second week of July brought showerwashywashy time into Dolly’s life. After ten years she finally accepts that this is going to happen from time to time and she goes along with it now, albeit unhappily. The process takes Floss and I to both keep her in the shower (much harder with a wet room), actually wash her and then quickly run after her downstairs to let her in the garden to rub herself on everything. May or June saw us go to the pier and we chose a bubble gun (for the dog) with all of the tickets we had accumulated. I think my sister and Sam enjoyed playing with it far more than Dolly did though. My dad came home with these curiously named burgers one day for dinner, we are still none the wiser as to why they are labelled this way though.

July, week three.
A selfie taken whilst sat under a tree with the dog, trying to keep up both cool whilst we waited for family to return from fruit picking in sweltering heat in the Kent countryside. A beautiful sunshine yellow Sunflower to place next to a photo of my mum. And the most delicious banana, strawberry and cherry sorbet/smoothie hybrid I’ve ever made. A photo of the haul my sister and Sam managed to pick when we went down to Kent, slowly working our way through the punnet of fruits.

July, week four.
It had been a very long time since I had seen the Surrogate Mothers Club, so it was arranged that we meet one evening for drinks and a catch up. There may have been some super sneaky shots consumed whilst waiting for our other drinks to be ready each time too. A really lovely evening sat outside chatting and enjoying a gin or five. The week following that weekend left me feeling really anxious, an underlying feeling of dread kept washing over me and I couldn’t shake it; as much as I felt I was going mad. So I slapped some makeup on (hence the selfie) and took myself off to see Christopher for twentyfour hours. Although I couldn’t fully shake the panic that evening, I was feeling much better on the Sunday. I could breathe a little better and I think it was just what I needed, a change of scene and pace. Another glorious sky photo, it was so blue and perfect just before I had to come home (which wasn’t as straight forward as it should be, two trains and a car ride home, thanks to Southern Rail, the most useless train providers ever).

Home is such a lonely place without you, home is such a lonely place

It has been about eighteen months since my mother passed away. If you’re new here this may give you some background as to how I was feeling then. I still miss my mother every day, my heart aches to see her smile. I was no stranger to grief before my mum passed, but I was unaware just how hard it can wallop you, leaving you feeling breathless and disorientated. Grief has changed me, a little for worse and a little for better.
I am not as good at being alone as I once was. Before, my own company was something I would often seek, spending hours on my own and being quite content. Loss has made me anxious when those I love aren’t close or they’re difficult to reach. At the back of my mind I am worried that something bad has happened and I won’t know and won’t be able to save them, like I couldn’t with my mum. I am scared that they will leave me. The swirling oppressive panic rises and the haze can be hard to break free from. Irritating for those I burden with my messages, I am working on trying to hold down the adrenaline and assumption that everyone will leave me.
I am kinder, my edges are softened. Caring for someone you love whole heatedly will always have an effect upon you. I had to teach myself to be more patient, compassionate and empathetic. It’s not that I didn’t want to be, I just found it hard after spending years blocking out people’s negative comments about me, to let the walls come down. However, when the person who has cared for you and done everything she can to provide a loving and well rounded existence for you, the walls come tumbling down. Looking after my mum showed me how to be a little kinder than I have to be. I wanted her to know that I loved her; I hope she knew just how much. I hope I was kind enough.
Grief has changed my relationships. A different family dynamic had emerged when I was caring for my mother, but after her death it has changed once again. I have distanced myself from certain people because I have realised that I do not need or want their negative energy in my life. Our existence is too short and filled with horrible things that we have no control over, so to take decisive action upon the things we can change is something I am working on. That being said, I have also had the chance to strengthen previous relationships. The big group of women in my life that I had always had the ‘my mum’s friends’ relationship with have now become my friends and an added support system should I need them. The Surrogate Mothers Club.
My tolerance for other peoples shitty behaviour has depleted. Although I have never been backwards in coming forwards in my opinions, I would often let others get away with their hostile and hurtful attitudes towards me. For years I allowed comments on my appearance to make me feel small and angry and at twenty-six I still feel sick every time I have to walk past workmen. The panic rises as I know the staring or the jeers are coming, keeping my head down and hoping that if I don’t make eye contact, maybe this time it won’t happen. However, over the past couple of years (as you may have read here before), I am learning to take proactive stands against such people when this happens. It isn’t just strangers in the street that I have felt the need to put in their place, but aforementioned distanced people too. I try to do my part to take a stand for those that haven’t found their voice yet too and if you’re mean to my sister, I’m coming for you. I do not need people in my life that do not encourage and empower the people around them.
Today will mark seven years since I lost my Grandma, the other woman in my life that loved me unconditionally. To lose my maternal twin pillars before they saw me flourish, find myself and love is heart breaking. I hope in my lifetime and through my actions I can be as clever, sparkling and fabulous as they were.
Something terrible has to occur for us to experience grief and loss, but once we get there something good can bloom from the darkness. Eventually your eyes begin to adjust and you can start to make out the silhouettes around you and stop being so scared of the blinding, smothering blackness. It won’t be easy and I’m under no illusion that it will ever end, but you adjust and endure, bend with the changing tides.

“The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not ‘get over’ the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same, nor would you want to.”

And we’re holding on when there’s nothing left to hold on to, so don’t tell me when it’s gone ’cause all I have left is you

May has come to a close and I’m a little sad about this. The past month has been filled with the best company, music, great memories. I am so pleased I started curating my months on here because it means I get to relive the lovely memories I’ve made. So, here is my May twentysixteen.

May, week one.
I love tiny plump sweet tomatoes. This day I ate an entire punnet to myself for lunch, it was a great decision. When I was seven (and my sister was born so my mum couldn’t be bothered to argue with me about it) I stopped wearing skirts/dresses/coats. Now nineteen years later as a grown up, I have to venture back into this world I do not feel at home in. This was one of many rejected options to wear to my boyfriend’s brother’s wedding next month. Being a plus size woman limits my choices of dresses and skirts, so it has certainly been a mountain of a task. However, stay tuned to see the dress I have (I think) decided upon in another blog post. May brought Lewis Watson back into my life, Floss and I went to see him play a “I want to see if you like my new songs before my album is released” gig in Shepherds Bush. We found a cute Mexican place for guacamole and delicious soft tacos.

May, week two.
A selfie, naturally. This week gave us more sunshine and a trip out for lunch with my aunt. We went to this cafe that is hidden away beside the sea, a favourite in our family. They sell the best banoffee cake too, so I made sure to grab some to bring home on my way out. A warm week called for a tiny Twister ice lolly, which Dolly thought should be for her, she was out of luck though.

May, week three.
If you have read the post before this one you will know that I hit twenty-thousand views on my blog this week. That’s amazing and I am so thankful for each and every single one. I love coming here and just writing whatever I feel like writing; but to have that many people willingly come and read it is incredible. Christopher makes excellent scrambled eggs, and he makes them for me every weekend I see him. I was craving them during the week though so I had to go it alone – they were pretty damn good. The Friday of that week brought a trip to Portsmouth with my sister that involved a much more complicated journey than necessary to the Passport Office. However, we made it in time and even did some shopping after before I went to meet Christopher for the weekend.

May, week four.
On Saturday we went for lunch with two of Christopher’s friends and their very cute and extremely chilled, most well behaved baby I’ve ever met. After lunch we decided to go and play adventure golf, which involved some playing in an arcade before hand. Amazingly I didn’t come last and tied joint second with Christopher. Sunday evening was home time and we passed this glorious masterpiece of nature on our way to drop me off. The bank-holiday weekend was filled with family as we had a very boozy gathering of people over. We drank lots, danced lots and laughed abundantly; it was the loveliest of days spent with some of my favourite people.

I didn’t want to deprive you of some live Lewis Watson clips, enjoy.

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You’re everything that I hoped for, that’s why I gave you my all

I came to write about something exciting, but first I am going to vent about the crappy day I am currently having (the exciting bit does come, I promise).
Today began with wiggly anxious feet, which is never the way a lady wishes to arise from her slumber. With too much unsolicited adrenaline my extremities tingle and I need to release this, so feet wiggling like I’m in Footloose is my usual go-to. Checking the time on my phone I realise I still have an hour before my alarm insists I get up. So I attempt to go back to sleep but I am met with the anxious thoughts that accompany my eighties dance movie choreography. Great. Then I receive a text from my sister to inform me that Dolly (the dog) has been sick a lot in the garden. Yippee. By this point it’s clear that I am not going back to sleep. I drag myself out of bed, eyes still mostly asleep whilst I get dressed to walk the dog and face the day. As I head downstairs I am met with an odor of vomit and two huge piles of sick. One of them is a revolting tangle of green slimy grass. Oh joy. As I go towards the back of the house to let the dog in to the garden, what do I see? Oh yes, that would be another 3 piles (this time its the raw chicken from last nights dinner), slick and putrid. Excellent. Then there is more in the garden and more in the living room I discover. Poor dog, clearly shes unwell but also, gross. It’s not even half nine in the morning yet. After spending a fair while doing my best Cinderella before she meets the prince impression, I walk the dog; who spends most of her time eating more grass…
My shopping is due to be delivered between ten and twelve today, so I await its arrival and get on with a multitude of boring house chores. However, the shopping still hasn’t arrived half an hour after the time-slot has ended. Weird. After logging into my account it would appear that I didn’t finish the transaction yesterday so our shopping won’t be coming today. And I haven’t even mentioned my strange enchanted hand that keeps going a little numb every now and then. I get to climb into a dark hole and never come out again now, right?!
Okay, I get that worse things happen at sea and certainly worse things have happened in my life, but today’s morning has felt relentlessly bleak. Roll on tomorrow evening and being with the boy I am incredibly fond of in a place that helps me breathe a little easier (when I’m not feeling anxious anyway *monkey covering eyes emoji*).

Now, onto much better news. On Tuesday the seventeenth of May, this blog hit twenty thousand overall views! I am so excited about this. I never thought I would actually keep up blogging, and I certainly never thought many if any people would want to read it. But I did and you did and now I’ve hit a huge milestone for someone who has just written a whole passage about dog vomit.
Thank you to everyone who reads my blog regularly or if you are entirely new and you’re helping me on my way to thirty thousand. I appreciate every view, every comment and every share I receive. You are all lovely people and I am so pleased that anyone would want to read my work.
I thought that I would link you my Facebook page, so should you wish to keep up to date and notified when a new post is published you can do so. Or, if you are a fellow WordPress user, feel free to hit ‘Follow’.
Here are some of my favourite pieces I have published on here, in case you missed them:

• Hold your head high, heavy heart (- Dear teenagers, it gets better or at least different).
• I have the dance moves of a mustache and the singing voice that sounds like a beard on the inside of my cheeks (- for all that love those with a beard and those that have careless whiskers to tame).
• And I am finally seeing that I was the one worth leaving (- Inspired by Frank Turner and moving on from something that never quite fit).
• You hid there last time, you know we’re gonna find you (-My tale of always being the fat girl and how some builders harassed me).
• But I am a ghost, just haunting myself (- An exercise in dissipating writers block, melancholic whimsy at its best).
• I’m ready to hope, swing me out of the low; wide awake in the glow, can’t do it alone (- Sadness and hope combined in melancholia. My canary sings no more).
• And I kissed him back like and arsonist with a pocket full of matches (-romanticised romance).

Once again, thank you.

Love me like you used to, when I couldn’t lose you

As it has been a fair while I thought this weeks post would be a Guy Friday! I am working on a nail art tutorial for sometime in the next couple of weeks…hopefully sooner rather than later. So look out for that one soon. Right, let’s just get straight into this weeks post.

This bearded wonder is called Dan Hayes and he is beautiful. There is something vaguely Jake Gyllenhaal about him and that is never a bad thing. I first came across this mans careless whiskers when a friend of mine (and previous guy friday contender) Josh took some photos of him. With hair like Jax Teller and a beard comparable to Chris Milly’s, whats not to like?

Jean-Luc Bilodeau is undeniably attractive. Only getting better with age, the Canadian actor looks exceptional with a little stubble. I first came across him when playing the comedic lead in Kyle XY (which I only saw a couple of before) and then again in a sitcom called Baby Daddy. Thankfully Netflix has put up the first season and a half of Kyle XY (and if you happen to read this Netflix, please add the rest, I need to know what happens!), although he is a little young in the programme for me now…but his character is my favourite.

If you have read my blog before, you will probably be aware of my love for Heroes. That is where I was first made aware of Robert Knepper as Samuel Sullivan – the earth moving carny. And now, he has popped up in my new obsession: Prison Break. I don’t know why I didn’t watch the series the first time around, but I am loving it now. With looks that could sometimes be mistaken for Johnny Depp’s, there is no denying this mans good looks.

Kyle Walters possibly has the cutest mouth ever, with his permanent cheeky grin. I like to watch web series’ on YouTube sometimes and when watching a spin off of The Lizzie Bennet Diaries with Gigi Darcy in Pemberly Digital’s Welcome to Sanditon – Walters pops up as Edward Denham. Now he is playing Peter Pan in a new imagining – The New Adventures of Peter and Wendy and I am absolutely loving it. A face you just want to squish that reminds me of actor Kyle Howard, I don’t know why this gorgeous man isn’t bigger in the acting world than he is.

There is something just lovely about Gabriel Mann who plays Nolan Ross, my favourite character in Revenge. I am not usually swayed by the blondes, but I make an exception for the impeccably dressed Nolan/Gabriel. Exquisite clothing often of a nautical persuasion, excellent coiffed hair and wonderful cheekbones are just a few of the reasons I think he is beautiful. The only downfall here is, and I am sure Gabriel is a lovely person in real life, but I can’t help wishing that Nolan Ross was a real person and a friend of mine…

Stefan Michalak is a ginger bearded beauty that I stumbled upon when watching his family’s vlogs that they upload every Sunday. His wife Hannah and cute cabbage patch son Grayson (/Squeaky G) make up this idyllic snap shot of life each week. Their vlogs are something I have come to look forward to watching each week to see what and where their lives have taken them. Stefan’s new website Wantfeed is a ‘brand new social wishlisting platform’, and I can tell already that it will be addictive.Not only does Stefan have a beard and tattoos, I think the thing that ties it all together so neatly and makes him even more beautiful than just his outter packaging, is what a wonderful husband and father he is.

Dan Howell (aka danisnotonfire) is YouTube sensation, radio 1 dj and my inner emo’s pin up boy (okay so maybe my emo isn’t so inner). A swooshy fringe, mostly black clothing, existential crises and an internet addiction and I am interested… I think more than anything he just reminds me of the good ol’ days of Myspace and the many boys I was ‘friends’ with that looked almost identical to him. Oh emo dream boy!

I am not sure I really need to write anything about Robert Sheehan, because all you have to do is look at him to understand why he is in my Guy Friday list. What a beauty. I loved Robert as Nathan in Misfits, his character was hilarious and if you haven’t seen the series with him in, you should definitely check it out (it’s on Netflix, obviously). He then went on to be in lots of other things and rightly so too, not only is he damn near perfect to look at, he is a wonderful actor too. And now he is staring as Simon in the best selling moving adaptation of the Mortal Instruments series…on the big screen!

Tom Fletcher, single handedly ruining all other women’s romantic/maternal futures by being the best at weddings and pregnancy videos. If you haven’t seen the videos I am talking about go and check them out (wedding/pregnancy). Not only is he most excellent at those things, he has a lovely voice and is the lead singer of McFly. He is by far my favourite member of the band and just seems like a really lovely and genuine man.

Now, I couldn’t mention Prison Break earlier without including the unbelievably swoon worthy Wentworth Miller. A little sad that he isn’t actually covered in tattoos, but I still have around 70 episodes to watch to admire his adorned torso. The cheek bone/jaw line combination of Miller’s makes him a more than a little easy on the eye. I urge you to watch Prison Break if you have not already…you won’t be disappointed.
I hope you enjoyed this post as it has been quite some time since the last. Some men and YouTube/programmes to consider too.

(I do not own these photos).

I’m gonna stay eighteen forever, so we can stay like this forever

Today’s post is just a short one as it’s a long weekend for everyone and I’m sure we all have plans. So I shall try and make another post next week…
Anyway, back to this post – I have compiled a new playlist as it has been about 6 weeks since the last one. Again, as always, it is made up of new and old songs, some you may have heard and some you probably haven’t. I love finding new music and often find myself scrolling through Pure Volume for new bands/singers. I am always looking for recommendations so please send me some if you have any.

And as it is such a short post how about a little Guy Friday?

Logan Lerman is known for his role as Percy Jackson, this is how I came across him a few years ago. He was pretty then, but now he is older at the ripe ol’ age of 22, he is turning into a beautiful man. He has also starred in The Perks of Being a Wallflower and is in the new blockbuster Noah. I think he is a fairly good actor too, not just chosen because of his looks but due to his talent.

Greek is now on Netflix and I couldn’t be happier! I have spent years being in love with Scott Michael Foster as Cappie on the american teen film centered around the relationships of those in the Greek system. The fun loving, shot taking ‘bad boy’ with a heart had me hooked from the first episode. I have watched Greek several times and now I can start all over again. Also, if you get the chance, watch his film Teenage Dirtbag. So very sad and full of teenage angst but definitely worth watching him play a modern version of Bender from The Breakfast Club.

I think I featured Milo Ventimiglia in my very first Guy Friday, but I cant get enough of him…so, here he is again. I first fell in love with Milo in The Gilmore Girls as Jess Mariano, with his penchant for books and letting people think the worst about him. If you also loved Jess, you may want to check out this Buzzfeed post. Then, along came Peter Petrelli in Heroes and It was even more Milo and super powers…what’s not to like?! Such a beautiful man. And, for fellow Heroes fans they’re making a new series that is due out next year, I am beyond excited!

HAPPY EASTER!

(I do not own all of these images/songs).

This is the way you wish your voice sounds, Handsome and smart. Oh my tongue’s the only muscle on my body that works harder than my heart

It has been a month since I last did a Guy Friday, so that is what you shall receive today. Plus I am too excited about seeing You Me At Six tomorrow that words and pictures are about all I can manage today. So much excite! However, I have become aware that I am not championing women enough on this blog, so Woman Crush Wednesday will be uploaded next week. Oh yes, midweek post! Okay, so it was meant to be up this week but as I am the queen of procrastination, I was doing my royal duty and not getting around to it.
With all of that said, here is today’s Guy Friday.

Eddie Cibrian was never really on my radar, until he played a serial killer who lures women into his basement by using his son…my Criminal Minds obsession is still going strong. I am even dreaming about it now. Anyway, Just looks at those dimples! And well, the rest of him. Oh that jaw line.

Let’s just get this one out of the way. I know that Justin Bieber is more than a knob most of the time, but he does remind me a little of Corey Haim and that is never a bad thing in my book! Yes, mostly he makes terrible music (a couple of tracks aside…) but you cannot deny just how pretty he is. If only he could stop being an absolute twat.

My inner teenager is in love with Benjamin Cook – the lip ring and the swooshy fringy hair always gets me. He is clever, sarcastic, creative and I like the way he speaks. Ben made a series on YouTube called ‘Becoming YouTube‘ where he explores what it takes to become popular on the website. Interviews, observations and sketches all rolled up into one amusing and insightful series.

Paul Wesley as Stefan Salvatore was never my favourite vampire brother in The Vampire Diaries, but he is becoming better looking as the program goes on. Now I think he is definitely on equal footing with Ian Somerhalder as Damon Salvatore. And again, just look at that jaw line!

Theo James is playing the role of Four in the new Divergent movie, which I am fairly excited to see. Although he doesn’t really look how I imagined him in the book (too pretty/a little too old for 18), I think he could work. He also played Mr. Pamuk in Downton Abbey and caused monumental chaos when he died in Lady Mary’s bed…awkward.

Cyr is someone I came across whilst watching Louis Cole‘s YouTube adventures last year. He is a kooky and quirky individual – which just makes me like him even more. He can sing, make short films and just comes across as a really nice guy. He has recently grown facial hair and I have to say, it was an excellent idea. Although cute without it, he is most handsome with it. Check both channels out on YouTube.

Oh Reggie Yates, my long term crush. He is beautiful and so creative, plus he is a trainer enthusiast like myself. Reggie always come across as a really lovely guy and someone you wish was your (boy)friend. His sense of style is impeccable. The tv presenter, actor and DJ is now trying his hand at directing too. Is there nothing this man can’t do?! 

Andy Jordan from Made In Chelsea is just so pretty! Dimples, that smile and those eyes! He is funny and I like his singing too, even if he is an idiot when it comes to Louise. I am far too invested in Made In Chelsea (which is back on Monday, yay), especially Andy, Francis and Jamie. Plus, he looks like a fisherman in the first photo which makes my heart beat a little faster.

So, I shall get working on my Woman Crush Wednesday for next week and perhaps even share some photos from tomorrows gig. I hope you enjoyed this weeks blog post. If you have any suggestions on who should be in a future Guy Friday please leave them in the comments.

(I do not own these photos).

You win some and you lose some. I’ve been losing for a while now

The TMI tag. It is something I have seen a few people I like to watch on YouTube do and I am feeling fairly uninspired on this lovely sunny day. Therefore, I thought I would give it a go and answer some questions. The whole thing is fairly reminiscent of the quizes people used to send round on MySpace…I, personally, think that it is a shame Facebook took over and it was no longer acceptable to add a random person because he/she had an awesome scene hair cut. Unfortunately I can no longer get up my old profile to do a comparison.

1: What are you wearing?
A black and white striped top, red hoodie, jeans, fluffy socks. Exciting I know.
2: Ever been in love?
Love is complicated. Are there varying levels of love? Everyone is different, and everyone makes you feel different. In which case I think I have.
3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
Nope.
4: How tall are you?
I am about 5’6″
5: How much do you weigh?
I am pleading the 5th on this one.
6: Any tattoos?
Yes…they’re both very small. I have many plans for many more. However, I have a small anchor on the palm side of index finger on my right hand, and a tiny sail boat behind my right ear.
7: Any piercings?
Yes. I have had my left wrist pierced 3 times, but they all had to come out for varying reasons. So I am left with my lip, nose, tregus, anti helix and my lobes.
8: OTP?
Troyler, Chuck and Blair and Delaina
9: Favourite show?
Where do I start?! The Gilmore Girls, Gossip Girl, The Mentalist, The Good Wife, Southland, Heroes, Lie To Me, White Collar, Poirot…I could go on.
10: Favourite bands?
You Me At Six, Pokey LaFarge, Fall Out Boy. So many more.
11: Something you miss?
The spring time, but its coming and I am very excited. Tulips and Daffodils, sunshine and Easter eggs.
12: Favourite song?
I find it really hard to narrow all of my favourite songs down to one. In fact, when faced with the question my mind has gone blank. I have many. 3 of my favourites are:
– The Academy Is… – The Phrase That Pays
– Young Love – Too Young To Fight It
– The Beautiful South – Woman In The Wall
13: How old are you?
24
14: Zodiac sign?
Aquarius
15: Quality you look for in a partner?
A good sense of humour, kindness and adventure.
16: Favourite Quote?
Again, so so many. Here’s one I mentioned in an earlier post: “Girls like us, when we love, it takes everything we have.”
17: Favourite actor?
Why do I keep having to choose just 1?! I am going to go for Channing Tatum. Take from that what you will.
18: Favourite color?
Pink. Black. Red.
19: Loud music or soft?
Always loud, until the sound completely consumes you.
20: Where do you go when you’re sad?
My bed, to read.
21: How long does it take you to shower?
A full on girl shower…20 minutes.
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
Haha, forever. An hour and a half ish…
23: Ever been in a physical fight?
Not really. I have been punched and I have punched someone. I am not really sure these count as fights though.
24: Turn on?
Skinny jeans/tattoos
25: Turn off?
Those who can’t speak grammatically/those who are rude
26: The reason I started blogging?
I have always enjoyed writing, reading others blogs and I am full of opinions.
27: Fears?
Injections, star nose moles and spiders.
28: Last thing that made you cry?
More terrible news.
29: Last time you said you loved someone?
Last week?
30: Meaning behind your Blog Name?
Belle of the Bluegrass comes from the lyrics of a Pokey LaFarge song called Kentucky Mae. “for the belle of the bluegrass is mine oh mine boys”
31: Last book you read?
Divergent by Veronica Roth
32: The book you’re currently reading?
Insurgent by Veronica Roth
33: Last show you watched?
Heroes on Netflix last night.
34: Last person you talked to?
My dad.
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
Shes my mum.
36: Favourite food?
Sushi. (/any seafood)
37: Place you want to visit?
Paris/New Orleans
38: Last place you were?
My Bedroom
39: Do you have a crush?
Always
40: Last time you kissed someone?
Not as recently as it should be.
41: Last time you were insulted?
I don’t remember, so that’s a good thing.
42: Favourite flavour of sweet?
Rose.
43: What instruments do you play?
I cant play any instruments. I really really want to learn the piano though. Someone teach me PLEASE?
44: Favourite piece of jewellery?
I have a ridiculous amount of jewellery. One of my favourites is my big rose necklace though. I have had it years and someone always admires it when I wear it.
45: Last sport you played?
hahahahahahahahahaha.
46: Last song you sang?
Josephine by Pokey LaFarge
47: Favourite chat up line?
“Do you have a lighter?” “No, sorry” “…can I have your number then?”
48: Have you ever used it?
No but it was used on me and it made me laugh
49: Last time you hung out with anyone?
A week ago? But I get to see Meredith tomorrow. YAY!
50: Who should answer these questions next?
Anyone. Especially those who miss MySpace quizzes/are bored.

I have posted the list of questions in the comments on this post, so if you fancy doing it that’s where you can find them. If you don’t have a blog, you can just answer them in my comments section if you like.
I am hoping that this post wasn’t too boring. It is one of those days where I have started to write several posts and just haven’t been as into it as I should be. It is much easier for others to think for you some times.
And because this blog wasn’t all that exciting, I will now include some super cringe worthy MySpace photos. I have no idea who I was at 15…

(Some of these photos are not my own.)

all those used up clichés, well they’ve worn enough in the wind

As I haven’t done a GUY FRIDAY for ages, I present to you some of my favourite men you can find on Netflix!
Brendan Hines  – Lie To Me. Unfortunately there are only 3 series of this program which I became slightly obsessed with. Brendan plays a character called Eli Loker, who at the start never tells a lie, although he still has difficulties getting along with his boss. Its witty, pseudo intellectual and written by the same people that write the Mentalist. In my books that makes it a winner. Plus Brendan Hines looks a little like Adam Brody.

Penn Badgley – Gossip Girl. Okay, so Penn’s character Dan Humphrey was never my favourite character, but then no one could really compete with Chuck Bass for me. However, when Penn is not being Dan, he is rather beautiful. Plus, I have been a huge Gossip Girl fan since the beginning.

Hunter Parish – Weeds. Now, I am not usually one for blondes, but you can’t deny how pretty Hunter is. I am desperate for Netflix to add the newer series of Weeds. A) because that would mean seeing Hunter/Silas Botwin as a grown man rather than a teenager and B) more Guillermo Diaz!

Zachary Quinto – Heroes. I have just started watching Heroes from the beginning again as it was so long ago since I last watched it and I didn’t get to see any after series 1 because our tv wouldn’t record it. But I am looking forward to watching them all, especially as I needed something the fill the void of Lie to Me/White Collar and Weeds. And who can deny that Zachary/Sylar isn’t lovely to look at (and Milo Ventimiglia).

Ross McCall – White Collar. I have just finished all 3 series of White Collar that Netflix currently provide (although there are 2 more series) and oh boy was it a cliff hanger! Ross plays a con artist called Matthew Keller who is the main character, Neal Caffrey/Matt Bomer’s, arch rival. I didn’t realise that Ross was Scottish until I looked him up for this post, but it only makes me like him even more.

Kristoffer Polaha – Life Unexpected. I liked this series when it was on e4 and was pleased to see that it was on Netflix, so I can rewatch it if I feel the need. Kristoffer plays a bartender/father called Baze. He is the comic relief of the show although he does have a deeper side too. If you like teen dramas and Britt Roberson its worth a watch.

Aaron Paul – Breaking Bad. I mainly signed up to Netflix to watch Breaking Bad as everyone had been raving about it for so long! However, because my sister wanted to watch it too and she is never in, we haven’t even got through the first series yet. But I may just have to leave her to watch it on her own time and fully get into this series. Aaron plays Jesse Pinkman and although his jeans are ridiculous, he’s pretty hot.

Tom Hughes – Silk. This legal drama originally aired on the BBC and I was hooked instantly. It is brilliantly written and as well as Tom it also stars the lovely Rupert Penry-Jones. They are currently making another series apparently, which I am very excited about. The only sad thing is that Tom Huges is only in the first series as Nick Slade, a trainee lawyer. Never fear though, he has been in many other things such as Cemetery Junction and the newest episode of Miss Marple.

David Dawson – Secret Diary of a Call Girl. I never fancied this series when it was on the tv, but I needed something that was a light a fluffy to watch one day and though I would give it a go. I loved it and watched all 4 series in only a couple of days. David plays an affluent eccentric called Byron and I loved him in this. He has been in so many things but hasn’t yet been given a main role. I first noticed him as a dandy news paper reported in Ripper Street and fell in love with him and when I discovered he was in this series I was most pleased.

Tim Roth – Lie to Me. As I said at the beginning of this post I became obsessed with this series and in no small part because of the amazing part of Cal Lightman that Tim Roth plays. An odd man with an incredible brain and interesting people skills. Please go and watch it, I absolutely loved it. Roth is a firm favourite with Quentin Tarantino and is in films such as Pulp Fiction and Reservoir Dogs as well as so many other programs and films. I love him.

So that is my list of noteworthy men on Netflix. Enjoy. x

 

(I do not own these images.)

Rain drops on roses

As it is coming up for that time of year, I thought I would share with you some of the things I would like to find inside my stocking (if money were no object). I always find it really hard to come up with anything I want for Christmas, even making this wishlist of 12 things was hard. I think that there are so many things I would love to own that it becomes hard to think of just one.
Anyway, let’s begin.
Babyliss Pro Perfect Curl. My aunt bought this and let me and my sister borrow it (for probably long than she intended) and we LOVED it. I have a lot of wavy/curly hair but sometimes I like it to be more uniform in its messiness and curlers in the past have let me down time and time again. I would curl it and within an hour they would have all fallen out. However the Babyliss Pro was an absolute dream! My hair would still be curly even after sleeping on it. I am slowly saving up to purchase this for myself because giving it back has left a massive hole in my life.

A beautiful red velvet hooded cape. No, not like super man, more like a sorcerers cape. So I can hang around in the woods looking menacing and tell small children I will turn them into frogs if they don’t behave. Because who wouldn’t want to do such things?! It may be a little extravagant, but I saw Morgana from Merlin wearing one and I have longed for one to be mine ever since. This one is from Etsy by http://www.etsy.com/shop/CostureroReal.

I have never really been one for using makeup brushes but since watching countless makeup gurus on Youtube it has become apparent that the Real Techniques brushes are miraculous. Everyone raves about how good they are, especially the face brush. Everyone looks so flawless! So I would like to give it a go. If you want to watch the ladies who invented such brushes do some flawless makeup tutorials, click on this link: http://www.youtube.com/user/pixiwoo. 

The Gilmore Girls have long been a favourite of mine. Its cute, funny and personally I think it is really well written. I think I have seen all of the episodes at least 6 times. I love it, i cant help it. Especially the Jess and Logan years because Dean sucks. So, the box set would be amazing!

Macarons. Especially Ladurée macarons. Specifically Rose flavoured ones. I don’t know why I love them quite as much as I do…maybe its because they are too expensive for me to buy lots of and often…Either way rose is one of my favourite flavours and in a macaron its even better.

Bloody Mary Metal make beautiful jewellery and I have long been obsessed with this Lonely Bone ring. It is just a little out of my everyday price range, so I am slowly saving up for it. I have a silver skull bracelet that I got for my birthday this year and I love it, so I think this ring would go perfectly and I must have it. Once I own this, I shall start saving for some stackers to go with it. The stuff is amazing and you should check it out: http://www.bloodymarymetal.com/

Jack Farthing. I first saw this brilliantly dandy man on tv programme ‘Blandings’ and instantly fell in love with him. When the series finished I was most disappointed that he would not be on my screen anymore, until the other day when he had a very small part in Poirot. We all know how much I love the little Belgian detective and this was a most lovely surprise! I don’t know if the posh voice he uses in these programmes is his own but I really hope it is. Either way, I would really like Jack Farthing for Christmas please.

Now, as I have just mentioned my favourite detective of all time, Mr. Hercule Poirot it would be silly to miss this off of my wishlist: the entire and complete collection of Agatha Christie’s Poirot on dvd. David Suchet will forever be my Poirot and I am so sad that the whole collection has been completed. No more Christmas Poirots.

My favourite perfume ever was the Stella McCartney Peony in two. It was the most beautiful scent “one side of the flagon holds a sultry and sensual scent based on amber; the other side holds a fresh peony and rose blend which is romantic and feminine”. It was perfect and they discontinued it! Now you can only ever find it on Ebay for extortionate amounts of money. Please Stella, P L E A S E start making this again!

Sarah Addison Allen is one of my all time favourite authors and she has only written 4 perfect books. They really are some of my favourite stories, all of them with the tiniest hint of magic. Beautifully written and imagined. Her new book which I have been waiting for forever is now due out in January, but If she could bring it out a little earlier that would be perfect. If you haven’t read any of her books you really must, at once. Garden Spells, The Sugar Queen, The Girl Who Chased The Moon and The Peach Keeper, all fantastic reads. http://www.sarahaddisonallen.com/

This is a very new addition that I would like because I only saw it on Friday when watching a beauty lady called Dulce Candy on Youtube talk about a makeup haul she had purchased recently. It is the Urban Decay Naked Illuminated Shimmering Powder. Now, I have plenty of shimmery powders and I don’t really need this but it just looked so sparkly and pretty and I really am a Magpie. It is just something I would buy, if I had the money and I just could. Along with the rest of Urban Decay make up.

Last on my list is a little more expensive than the rest but I have been after a Morris Minor car for years now. I cant drive and apparently they aren’t the safest car anyway, but I personally think they are just gorgeous! They don’t make cars this pretty anymore. I first saw one when I was in the New Forrest about 2006 and have been lusting after one ever since. There is a man in my road who collects them and sometimes he has one parked outside of his house and it is so pretty and shiny and vintage I have to stop myself from touching it.

So those are 12 things that I would like to find in my stocking and under the tree this Christmas. Some a little more realistic than others yes, but a girl can dream.
If money didn’t matter, what 3 things would you really like this Christmas?

(I do not own these images).